Winner of the Restless Books Prize for New Immigrant Writing, Rajiv Mohabir’s Antiman is an impassioned, genre-blending memoir that navigates the fraught constellations of race, sexuality, and cultural heritage that have shaped his experiences as an Indo-Guyanese queer poet and immigrant to the United States. Growing up a Guyanese Indian immigrant in Central Florida, Rajiv Mohabir is fascinated by his family’s abandoned Hindu history and the legacy of his ancestors, who were indentured laborers on British sugarcane plantations. In Toronto he sits at the feet of Aji, his grandmother, listening…mehr
Winner of the Restless Books Prize for New Immigrant Writing, Rajiv Mohabir’s Antiman is an impassioned, genre-blending memoir that navigates the fraught constellations of race, sexuality, and cultural heritage that have shaped his experiences as an Indo-Guyanese queer poet and immigrant to the United States. Growing up a Guyanese Indian immigrant in Central Florida, Rajiv Mohabir is fascinated by his family’s abandoned Hindu history and the legacy of his ancestors, who were indentured laborers on British sugarcane plantations. In Toronto he sits at the feet of Aji, his grandmother, listening to her stories and songs in her Caribbean Bhojpuri. By now Aji’s eleven children have immigrated to North America and busied themselves with ascension, Christianity, and the erasure of their heritage and Caribbean accents. But Rajiv wants to know more: where did he come from, and why does he feel so out of place? Embarking on a journey of discovery, he lives for a year in Varanasi, on the banks of the Ganges, perfecting his Hindi and Bhojpuri and tracing the lineage of his Aji’s music. Returning to Florida, the cognitive dissonance of confederate flags, Islamophobia, and his father’s disapproval sends him to New York, where finds community among like-minded brown activists, work as an ESL teacher, and intoxication in the queer nightlife scene. But even in the South Asian paradise of Jackson Heights, Rajiv feels like an outsider: “Coolie” rather than Desi. And then the final hammer of estrangement falls when his cousin outs him as an “antiman”—a Caribbean slur for men who love men—and his father and aunts disown him. But Aji has taught Rajiv resilience. Emerging from the chrysalis of his ancestral poetics into a new life, he embraces his identity as a poet and reclaims his status as an antiman—forging a new way of being entirely his own. Rapturous, inventive, and devastating in its critique of our own failures of inclusion, Antiman is a hybrid memoir that helps us see ourselves and relationships anew, and announces an exciting new talent in Rajiv Mohabir.
Rajiv Mohabir is the author of Cutlish (Four Way Books 2021), The Cowherd’s Son (2017, winner of the 2015 Kundiman Prize) and The Taxidermist’s Cut (2016, winner of the Four Way Books Intro to Poetry Prize and finalist for the Lambda Literary Award for Gay Poetry in 2017), and translator of I Even Regret Night: Holi Songs of Demerara (1916) (2019), which received a PEN/Heim Translation Fund Grant Award and the Harold Morton Landon Translation Award from the Academy of American Poets. His essays can be found in places like Asian American Writers Workshop’s The Margins, Bamboo Ridge Journal, Moko Magazine, Cherry Tree, Kweli, and others, and he has a “Notable Essay” in Best American Essays 2018. Currently he is an Assistant Professor of poetry in the MFA program at Emerson College. His debut memoir, Antiman, won the Restless Books Prize for New Immigrant Writing.
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Author’s Note
Open the Door Home: Prolepsis Aji Recording: Bibah Kare My Eyes Are Clouds South Asian Language Summer Aji Recording: Dunce Evolution of a Song Bhabhua Village Neech Ganga Water\ Prayer
Pap The Last Time I Cut: A Journal Antiman Aji Recording: How Will I Go Eh Bhai A Family Outing, Alternative Ending 1 A Family Outing, Alternative Ending 2 A Family Outing, Alternative Ending 3 Amazon River Dolphin
Aji Recording: Song for the Lonely Season Leaving Florida Ardhanarishvaram Raga Mister Javier’s Lesson Plan Islamophic Misreadings: Some Queens Definitions American Guyanese Diwali
Aji Recording: Love Beat Handsome Sangam / Confluence The Lover and the Chapbook The Outside Workshop Brown Inclusion: Some Queens Definitions E Train to Roosevelt Ave Making All Local Stops in Queens Ganga and the Snake: A Fauxtale / Ganga aur Saamp
Aji Recording: Asirbaad, Blessing The King and the Koyal: A Fauxtale / Raja aur Kokila My Veil’s Stain Barsi: One Year Work Reincarnate Open the Door Reprise
Open the Door Home: Prolepsis Aji Recording: Bibah Kare My Eyes Are Clouds South Asian Language Summer Aji Recording: Dunce Evolution of a Song Bhabhua Village Neech Ganga Water\ Prayer
Pap The Last Time I Cut: A Journal Antiman Aji Recording: How Will I Go Eh Bhai A Family Outing, Alternative Ending 1 A Family Outing, Alternative Ending 2 A Family Outing, Alternative Ending 3 Amazon River Dolphin
Aji Recording: Song for the Lonely Season Leaving Florida Ardhanarishvaram Raga Mister Javier’s Lesson Plan Islamophic Misreadings: Some Queens Definitions American Guyanese Diwali
Aji Recording: Love Beat Handsome Sangam / Confluence The Lover and the Chapbook The Outside Workshop Brown Inclusion: Some Queens Definitions E Train to Roosevelt Ave Making All Local Stops in Queens Ganga and the Snake: A Fauxtale / Ganga aur Saamp
Aji Recording: Asirbaad, Blessing The King and the Koyal: A Fauxtale / Raja aur Kokila My Veil’s Stain Barsi: One Year Work Reincarnate Open the Door Reprise
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