I wrote this text when I was in college. I am under the impression that many people have read this work without my consent. My privacy has been continuously violated as I try to just write. If I had to sum up with this story is about in as short as possible: A man loses love and overcomes great adversity in the pursuit of hope. It is a confessional of resilience in the face of despair. This book is written from a place of deep love. Nobody helped me edit or proof read. There are many typos. I hope they don't get in the way of the message the story aims to convey.